Monday, November 28, 2011


I don't even know where to begin. I've been trying to write for weeks, but there's a lot I can't discuss and that makes it very difficult. 

Kaitlyn has had her neuropsychological evaluation and we learned far more than we anticipated that we would. We are still waiting for the report, which will probably be another few weeks, but we are already working with what we know. There are some serious concerns and Kaitlyn has had multiple doctor's appointments this month as a result.  My heart is so very heavy and feels like it is breaking into pieces. It's a time in my life where I could sure benefit from having a best friend. But that's a blog for another day. 

During the midst of all this, Josh's job is changing health care providers, so we're having to find new doctor's. There are fewer Child and Adolescent specialists than there are for adults. That means they have longer waiting lists, assuming they are even accepting new patients. It's more difficult still when you're looking for female doctors. I have very nearly if not completely exhausted my list of possible doctors within a 50 mile radius under our current insurance. I can't even begin calling doctors on my list with the new insurance until I know exactly what health care product we have. For the time being, all I can do is make my list of potential doctors as long as I can and wait. Waiting is hard! Waiting isn't acting and I have a really difficult time with that. 

Little by little, step by step, I'm making my way every day.